Hannah Montana

I’ve been so caught up in my job, didn’t see what’s going on

I finally took a sick day today. I swear it’s been a long time coming. As usual my stressed-out butt was too stubborn to admit it needed time off but it also just caught up with me. Have you ever cough-vomited? Well, I have. You’re very welcome for that lovely image. Do you think that was my body telling me it needs me to slow down?

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I don’t own anything by Valentino but you get it

I feel like this is a bit of a pattern with me. I’m not good at taking breaks and allowing myself to just take a moment to regroup. From my blog entries from my Master’s, you’ll see this was also the case. I didn’t even realise I had glandular fever, that’s how badly I didn’t want to take a break…

So I’ve been taking steps towards making my life easier. I’ve decided to start my own website. It’s still in the planning stages but I’m hoping I can direct energy towards that rather than worrying about things that I can’t control. I’ve also started a journal which helps me to put things into perspective. It’s been helping a lot, actually. Writing things down really help me clarify to myself what I’m really worried about and helps me to see that:

1) What I’m worried about hasn’t even happened yet

2) Even if it does happen, it doesn’t have to be the end of the world.

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I need to listen to the optimistic polar bear

People at work always say, “We don’t cure cancer. No one is going to die if there is a mistake.” I really need to remember this so that I feel more confident about the things I do.

I know I’m still learning but I have to say, it really sucks being back at the bottom of the totem pole. Maybe this is one of the biggest challenges of entering the workforce after uni – no matter how good you were as a student, you will always feel like you know nothing when you enter the industry.

Things I have learned since the last post:

  • I need ‘me’ time. This means finding a hobby so that work isn’t everything. I should have listened to Adam Sandler.
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Take some time to enjoy your personal life, before you end up *spoiler alert* losing Kate Beckinsale to Sean Astin

  • Ignoring your need for a sick day won’t make your illness go away. It’s going to get gross if you don’t listen to your body because it’s the ultimate drama queen
  • Writing down your thoughts helps to calm the crazy. When your mind is spinning out of control, write that shit down

Random ‘Stop Freaking Out and Accept That You’re Human’ lyrics:

If I’m not doin’ too well
Why be so hard on myself?

Nobody’s perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again
‘Til I get it right

Nobody’s perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes
Nobody’s perfect

– Hannah Montana

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Day 53 – It’s Over and Done But the Tiredness Lives On Inside…

YES.

ALL THE (SUBMITTED) ESSAYS ARE DONE.

Let us rejoice at the return of sleep. Sleep is so beautiful.

Not so smug now, are ya princess?

Not so smug now, are ya princess?

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Instead of working? Nothing. But I did rewatch episodes of Orphan Black with my mum in between essay marking as a reward for every 5 essays I marked. Woo!

    I haz time management skillz

    I haz time management skillz

Random Hannah Montana lyrics I shamelessly sang in the shower:

Sometimes I wish when the phone rings
That it would be you saying, “Let’s hang out”
Then you confess that there’s something special
In between us, why don’t we find out

You don’t know me, guess you don’t need me
Why you’re not seein’ what you’re missin’
On the outside shyin’ away
On the inside dying to say

I’m unusual, not so typical
Way too smart to be waiting around
Tai Chi practices, snowboard champion
I can fix the flat on your car

I might even be a rock star

– Hannah Montana

Day 38 – Oh, Sad Movies Always Make Teenagers Cry

Ugh.

This morning was basically like this:

Tina Belcher. My spirit animal.

Tina Belcher. My spirit animal.

Then I had half a wedge of camembert for lunch. Which was okay.

Postgrad life is killing me. Not softly with a song, like Roberta Flack. Killing me aggressively with ups and downs of stress and work. The days after you finish a big deadline aren’t even breaks or celebrations. They’re just a chance to reload.

I love it.

Bring it, baby.

Bring it, baby.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Stayed in bed until 12pm. I had every intention of doing a bed rest day, eating my cheese and crackers and listening to my podcast.
  • Got a random message from JK who I barely talk to during the weekend because we generally just talk via ESP. Because we’re awkward as crap, we took forever to actually get around to saying, “Oh hey, did you maybe wanna hang out today?”. We got there eventually.
  • Hell yes, Wendy’s and The Fault In Our Stars! Well, mostly the Wendy’s thing. The movie was okay and also quite sad but super cheesy. Some of the lines were just hysterical simply because there’s no way in hell teenagers are that poetic and articulate, especially when they speak to someone they’ve only just started dating. That corny crap is usually reserved for people you’ve dated for awhile, mostly because they love you too much to leave you for saying vomity things.
    In real life: "I don't really wanna kiss you because you were an asshole to me."

    In real life: “I don’t wanna kiss you because you’re a dick.”

    Although, the best part about the movie was the amount of people willing to ugly cry in the dark, despite the fact that they are surrounded by hundreds of people. I’ve been known to cry during a movie. It’s just something that I do. But kids, if you can, try to save your tears for a slightly better story. This movie doesn’t even begin to show how epic an epic movie romance can be.

  • You crazy kids with your epic love stories

    Like Noah and Allie, whose love could do anything

    Basically any Rachel McAdams movie is acceptable

    Basically any Rachel McAdams movie is acceptable for ugly crying…

    And basically the first 10 minutes of this movie, unless you're a monster.

    …and the first 10 minutes of this movie, unless you’re a heartless monster.

Random lyrics from 18 year old me:

Why be sad broken hearted?
There’s so much to do
Life is hard or it’s a party
The choice is up to you

With a new attitude everything can change
Make it how you want it to be
Stay sad, why do that? Give yourself a break
I know you want to party with me

Hannah Montana

Day 26 – You Change Your Mind Like A Person Changes Clothes (BECAUSE WE ALL WEAR CLOTHES)

I don’t really have anything to say tonight.  I always seem to flip flop between loving my thesis and just wanting to crawl up in a ball and pray for daylight. Let’s let the video do the talking. I clearly need sleep.

Really need to go out and have fun soon.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Spent some After Hours time with Soren and his buddies. You always make me feel better, imaginary digital friend.

    Pretty much

  • Stared at the shower wall and considered life’s big questions… Why DID Justin have to bring sexy back? Was 2003 – 2007 a very unsexy time?
  • Deconstructed The Devil Wears Prada  so that I can use it as an example of habitus, doxa, cultural field and cultural capital. Tomorrow should be fun.
  • Missed four buses trying to get to uni. FOUR.
  • Also sleepy AGaTrois says this:

    Thanks, CH.

    Thanks for the visual aid, CH.

Random creeper lyrics:

When I saw you over there
I didn’t mean to stare
But my mind was everywhere
I wanna know you

Gonna guess that you’re the kind
To say what’s on your mind
But you listen when I have something to show you

– Hannah Montana

And this is how it would really play out

Day 17 – OH! We’re Halfway There!

BOOM!

I managed to write my three research questions today.  I think I owe a lot of this productivity to CH for napping on the floor and giving me the soothing sounds of her sleep-breathing to use as my writing soundtrack. Thanks babes. Told you I’d mention it in the blog.

I’ve also mostly finished my bibliography and on top of that, I have worked out a draft for my methodology, theoretical framework and research gap sections. Phew! It’s been a pretty busy day but it’s really helped me get back in the mood to research. This part of the process has been amazing in getting me interested in the topic again. I think I forgot that this whole thing was my idea in the first place but I remember now. Hopefully I’ll get the whole thing done by Monday so that I can send it off to be checked and still have time to modify the sections that need work.

I can’t wait to go back tomorrow.

Uni on a Sunday? Hell yes!

Uni on a Sunday? Yes, please!

Oh yeah, I should probably note that my day started off amazingly. I know I dedicate a lot of space to writing about how much I hate the 23 bus but today, it blew my mind. I’m not going to say it came on time. Don’t be ridiculous. However, my first bus was so late that it coincided perfectly with the lateness of the 23. I waited less than a minute to connect my ride to university. Using public transportation fails to my advantage, hells yeah!

Here's to winning the bad luck lottery!

Here’s to winning the bad luck lottery!

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Attempted to do the Hoedown Throwdown with CH.

    Try it at home, y’all!

  • Laughed hysterically about Lemon-Stealing Whores.“If you were a lemon I would put you on my shelf and cherish you like I cherish all our lemons.”
  • Watched waaaaay too many After Hours videos. I really need to find my own Soren Bowie to argue with about movies and television. Where are all the passionate media dorks?
  • Ordered from Hell without buying a pizza. CH and I decided that if the same delivery guy keeps delivering, we’ll eventually invite him in to watch a movie on the computer with us. Yeah. That won’t give him the wrong idea at all.
  • Resentfully watched first-years as they went off clubbing while I waited for the bus. I miss fun.
  • Thought about Zack Morris and Kelly Kapowski:
    Aaargh so cute!

    Aaargh so cute!

    I am still on such a Saved by the Bell kick. I have to make sure I include the show in my thesis somehow… Crap, now I’ve thought about it too much and I have to watch another episode before bed.

    *retro swoon*

Random totally awesome Bruno Mars lyrics:

I love you so, that’s what you’ll say
You’ll tell me baby, baby, please don’t go away 
But when I play, I never stay 
To every girl that I meet, yeah, this is what I say

Run, run, runaway, runaway, baby
Before I put my spell on you
You better get, get, get away, get away, darling
‘Cause everything you heard is true
Your poor little heart will end up alone
‘Cause Lord knows I’m a rolling stone
So you better run, run, run away, run away, baby

– Bruno Mars