Justin Bieber

I’ve been so caught up in my job, didn’t see what’s going on

I finally took a sick day today. I swear it’s been a long time coming. As usual my stressed-out butt was too stubborn to admit it needed time off but it also just caught up with me. Have you ever cough-vomited? Well, I have. You’re very welcome for that lovely image. Do you think that was my body telling me it needs me to slow down?

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I don’t own anything by Valentino but you get it

I feel like this is a bit of a pattern with me. I’m not good at taking breaks and allowing myself to just take a moment to regroup. From my blog entries from my Master’s, you’ll see this was also the case. I didn’t even realise I had glandular fever, that’s how badly I didn’t want to take a break…

So I’ve been taking steps towards making my life easier. I’ve decided to start my own website. It’s still in the planning stages but I’m hoping I can direct energy towards that rather than worrying about things that I can’t control. I’ve also started a journal which helps me to put things into perspective. It’s been helping a lot, actually. Writing things down really help me clarify to myself what I’m really worried about and helps me to see that:

1) What I’m worried about hasn’t even happened yet

2) Even if it does happen, it doesn’t have to be the end of the world.

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I need to listen to the optimistic polar bear

People at work always say, “We don’t cure cancer. No one is going to die if there is a mistake.” I really need to remember this so that I feel more confident about the things I do.

I know I’m still learning but I have to say, it really sucks being back at the bottom of the totem pole. Maybe this is one of the biggest challenges of entering the workforce after uni – no matter how good you were as a student, you will always feel like you know nothing when you enter the industry.

Things I have learned since the last post:

  • I need ‘me’ time. This means finding a hobby so that work isn’t everything. I should have listened to Adam Sandler.
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Take some time to enjoy your personal life, before you end up *spoiler alert* losing Kate Beckinsale to Sean Astin

  • Ignoring your need for a sick day won’t make your illness go away. It’s going to get gross if you don’t listen to your body because it’s the ultimate drama queen
  • Writing down your thoughts helps to calm the crazy. When your mind is spinning out of control, write that shit down

Random ‘Stop Freaking Out and Accept That You’re Human’ lyrics:

If I’m not doin’ too well
Why be so hard on myself?

Nobody’s perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again
‘Til I get it right

Nobody’s perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes
Nobody’s perfect

– Hannah Montana

Day 58 – They’ve Got Me Runnin’ and Hidin’ All Over Town

I feel slightly incompetent today. I wrote the wrong grade in for one of my students and I feel pretty bad about it. Everything worked out fine but BAH I hate screwing up something that I checked over and over and over again. It just means next time I’ll be even more anxious and paranoid about the things that I do for tutorials.

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I still haven’t gotten around to watching Pretty Little Liars. What is this? I wonder if there is reasoning behind my reluctance to keep watching this show even though I always enjoy it when I do. Is this reasoning something that I can incorporate into my thesis?

ANSWERS. I NEED ANSWERS.

Things I did instead of working:

  • Met up with L. It’s so great to meet people that you have a lot in common with. I find it so inspiring to talk to aspiring writers, I wish I had their kind of passion and sense of certainty about what they’re doing.
  • Went to JG’s birthday dinner! Karaoke woooooooooo
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  • Set up meetings with C and A. I’ll allocate second letters once I know, haha.

Seriously though, my weekend is looking so busy now. I have so much thesis stuff I want to do this weekend. THEY MUST BE DONE!

Random lyrics I shamelessly sang at Red Hill. Own it, babes:

You know you love me, I know you care
Just shout whenever, and I’ll be there
You are my love, you are my heart
And we will never ever ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl, quit playing
We’re just friends, what are you saying?
Say there’s another and look right in my eyes
My first love broke my heart for the first time
And I was like…

Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby nooo
Like baby, baby, baby oooh
I thought you’d always be mine (mine)

– Justin Bieber