postgrad

So No One Told You Life Was Gonna Be This Way…

When I logged on to this blog last night, WordPress highlighted that it has been 7 months since I last posted. 7 months might not be long enough for me to have created a child but my life has certainly changed in a dramatic way since posting about the results of my thesis. Honestly, the last 7 months has been a bit of a rude awakening.

Turn and face the strange

I discovered that job hunting after you’ve dedicated yourself to studying for basically two decades is hard. Very hard. Completing higher level education means being both overqualified and underqualified for almost every job you see advertised. Having a Master’s is only useful if the person hiring you knows its value. Quite frankly, the media industries could not give less of a shit about how many textbooks I defaced with my yellow highlighter and rainbow Post-Its. Make sure you work in a relevant field while you’re studying, kids. Your ‘A’ will only get you so far. It also needs to get into G 😉

Despite the above challenge, I landed a job with a company that, thankfully, knows a Master’s means more than just a year of hanging out in bar/cafes and drinking vodka tonics (though admittedly that was basically a mandatory course requirement). However, this job meant I had to move away from my beautiful, hipster-artsy hometown and settle into a somewhat more domestic life in a much, much larger city.

The transition from student to employee has been an interesting one. It’s a different kind of stress that I’m used to, and I feel more pressure to succeed because I know people are relying on me. For this reason, I feel more anxious about every decision I make. I know I just need to make adjustments to how I handle the stress. I may not be able to plan out my daily steps like I did for my MA, but I’d like to think this is just Act I of my very own real-life Devil Wears Prada sitcho… which means it’s only a matter of time before Meryl Streep plucks me from obscurity and makes me her protégé.

I hope my transition also involves a flawless wardrobe upgrade

Because of the number of changes in my life, I’m restructuring this blog slightly. I feel like I need a creative outlet so that my life doesn’t just feel like a work/sleep cycle. Also, since I can no longer have days where I do something else instead of working, I’m calling the next section “Things I have learned since the last post”. There’s so much to learn about being in the working world and I’m more than willing to share. Stay tuned, folks. I’m about to begin the second chapter of the Confession of a Media Postgrad blog – The Suit Life.

Things I have learned since the last post:

  • I almost always cry after a stressful situation is resolved. It’s like my body refuses to break down until it’s absolutely certain there’s time for a quick cry. I think it’s probably better this way. Get shit done, then fall apart.
  • No amount of caffeine can replace a good night’s sleep. Handling last minute pressures means I need to be more alert. Only the well-rested will survive!
  • Eating is crucial. Nothing huge will happen in 30 minutes. Stop, breathe, and refuel. I have to thank my coworker for this little nugget of wisdom.

Lyrics for the harsh realities of adulthood:

Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol’ days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed out.

Used to play pretend, used to play pretend, bunny
We used to play pretend, wake up, you need the money
Used to play pretend, used to play pretend, bunny
We used to play pretend, wake up, you need the money
We used to play pretend, give each other different names,
We would build a rocket ship and then we’d fly it far away,
Used to dream of outer space but now they’re laughing at our face,
Saying, “Wake up, you need to make money.

– twenty one pilots

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Day 545 – Where Are Ü Now?

Usually when I’m late to posting, I try to fill up all the extra days with ‘cheat’ entries, trying to recall what I did on those days that I forgot to post. Well, baby, it’s been 484 days so you’ll just have to deal.

The good news is I completed my thesis! One month longer than I originally planned because I had glandular fever or what the cool kids call “mono”. It’s amazing how many people get sick during postgrad and not even realise it. It’s like we expect that deterioration of our health to be just another regular aspect of university. Fun fact: If you read back, you can see my descent into glandular fever. I didn’t even know I was sick but I was always complaining about it. Silly workaholics.

I'm fiiiiiine!

I’m fiiiiiine!

Anyway, here is the thesis in all its shiny, wonkily-bound glory. As my high school history teacher used to say, “There are many like it, but this one is mine”. He was actually talking about why we weren’t allowed to touch his newspaper and I don’t really think many people devoted themselves to analysing the engagement strategy of basic-cable teen channel but nevertheless, I successfully completed something! Yay!

My baby. Except it's better than a baby because it took longer than 9 months. Shhh just let me have this, it might be the only child I ever create.

My baby. Except it’s better than a baby because it took longer than 9 months. Shhh just let me have this, it might be the only child I ever create.

Hopefully finishing my thesis means you can forgive me for failing so hard at blogging. To be fair, I started this blog because I wanted to keep myself accountable for all the things I had been doing instead of working on my thesis. Because I was so hard at work, I didn’t have anything to write about!

…That’s my story and I’m sticking to it…

I will blog a little bit about the grade that I received for my thesis and all the cool things that have happened since then. It doesn’t really make sense to follow the daily blogging pattern anymore but I’ll try anyway so that I have things to do now that I’m unemployed. Yay again….?

Things I did today instead of working:

  • You didn’t read my post, did you? TL;DR I’m done with my masters. I can do whatever the hell I want. BAHAHAHA!
  • Actually, I spent the day marking assignments. What else is new? Seriously this whole blog should have just been entitled “Confessions of an Assignment Marker”. I reread most of my old posts and it’s just me ranting about how busy I am with assignments.
  • I watched Weeds. Such a good show. Here is a photo of Silas to help make your day brighter.
All right, jeez Silas. I already explained why I haven't been blogging!

All right, jeez Silas. I already explained why I haven’t been blogging! Chill.

Random lyrics that might as well have been written about the process of writing Master’s thesis:

I’ve paid my dues
Time after time
I’ve done my sentence
But committed no crime
And bad mistakes
I’ve made a few
I’ve had my share of sand
Kicked in my face
But I’ve come through

And we mean to go on and on and on and on

We are the champions – my friends
And we’ll keep on fighting
Till the end
We are the champions
We are the champions
No time for losers
‘Cause we are the champions of the World
– 
Queen

Day 61 – I’m Just A Crosshair, I’m Just A Shot Away From You

Cheat entry

Seriously though.

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I really need to plan exactly when I’m going to be writing these entries. I just keep ignoring them.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Went for a stroll with A 🙂
  • Celebrated with KT. Congrats on finishing that MA, babes. You’re an inspiration to us all.

    Apparently it's not a myth. it can be done.

    Apparently it’s not a myth. it can be done.

  • Had dinner with JK and GR. JK’s first attempt at cooking for people. You go, girl!

    You definitely did better than this :)

    You definitely did better than this 🙂

Random ‘here we go again’ lyrics:

Your eyes tell me how you love me
Can feel it in your heart beat
I know you like what you see
Hold me, I’ll give that you need
Wrap your love around me
You’re so excited, I can feel you
Getting hotter, oh baby
I’ll take you down, I’ll take you down
Where no one’s ever gone before
And if you want more, if you want more
More, more, more
Jump! For my love!

– The Pointer Sisters

Day 58 – They’ve Got Me Runnin’ and Hidin’ All Over Town

I feel slightly incompetent today. I wrote the wrong grade in for one of my students and I feel pretty bad about it. Everything worked out fine but BAH I hate screwing up something that I checked over and over and over again. It just means next time I’ll be even more anxious and paranoid about the things that I do for tutorials.

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I still haven’t gotten around to watching Pretty Little Liars. What is this? I wonder if there is reasoning behind my reluctance to keep watching this show even though I always enjoy it when I do. Is this reasoning something that I can incorporate into my thesis?

ANSWERS. I NEED ANSWERS.

Things I did instead of working:

  • Met up with L. It’s so great to meet people that you have a lot in common with. I find it so inspiring to talk to aspiring writers, I wish I had their kind of passion and sense of certainty about what they’re doing.
  • Went to JG’s birthday dinner! Karaoke woooooooooo
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  • Set up meetings with C and A. I’ll allocate second letters once I know, haha.

Seriously though, my weekend is looking so busy now. I have so much thesis stuff I want to do this weekend. THEY MUST BE DONE!

Random lyrics I shamelessly sang at Red Hill. Own it, babes:

You know you love me, I know you care
Just shout whenever, and I’ll be there
You are my love, you are my heart
And we will never ever ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl, quit playing
We’re just friends, what are you saying?
Say there’s another and look right in my eyes
My first love broke my heart for the first time
And I was like…

Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby nooo
Like baby, baby, baby oooh
I thought you’d always be mine (mine)

– Justin Bieber

Day 57 – Please Forgive Me, For Forgetting To Blog Like I Do

Cheat Entry 😦 😦

What is wrong with me? I really am a goldfish.

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Just kidding. I’m not forgetful, I’m just really lazy.

I did spend some time thinking about the dead girl trope in Pretty Little Liars and how I can use that to consider the trickle-down effect of innovations at the high-end of television. I feel like there’s something there but I am starting to worry that perhaps I either chose the wrong case study or I am heading towards somewhere very different from what I originally intended. Oh the joys of postgrad.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Bought an e-reader. Guess who’s gonna be reading about fan cultures and Pretty Little Liars on the bus?
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  • Spent all night telling five different people about my thesis and going into detail about how I plan on going about it. For fun. I’m that boring person at the party that talks about work.

 Random lyrics stuck in my head:

I got a Black Magic Woman
I got a Black Magic Woman
Yes, I got a Black Magic Woman
She’s got me so blind I can’t see
But she’s a Black Magic Woman and
she’s trying to make a devil out of me

– Santana

Day 56 – Please Forgive Me, I Know Not What I Do

Cheat Entry 😦

For shame

For shame

I don’t even remember what I did today. I apologise.

I think I did a lot of photocopying. Oh yes, and I read from Matt Hills’ Fan Cultures book. I also vaguely remember feeling unwell.

Am I a goldfish?

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Swiped right and left. It’s amazing how many matches you get during stormy weather. I guess there’s nothing quite like being alone on a cold night to make people want to window shop on Tinder.
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Random  lyrics for the stormy seasons:

Love is in the air
Everywhere I look around
Love is in the air
Every sight and every sound

And I don’t know if I’m being foolish
Don’t know if I’m being wise
But it’s something that I must believe in
And it’s there when I look in your eyes

– John Paul Young

Day 55 – It’s Going Down, I’m Yelling Tinder

I spent the whole day in bed again. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I keep feeling really sick and exhausted both mentally and physically. I think maybe I need to change my diet because my body is just not cooperating with my activities.

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Today was such a miserable day, simply because I wanted to get heaps of things done. I wanted to finish cleaning my room, I wanted to work out, I wanted to cook a proper breakfast… instead I lay in bed and coughed. At least I managed to read late essays so, that’s something.

Damn this day. Ruiner of What We Do In The Shadows trip and waster of time.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Convinced by my friends to finally download Tinder. Since I was on bed-rest, it seemed as good a time as any. I’m not opposed to online dating, I’m just kind of a shy person. In fact, I got so nervous about right-swiping someone that I had to text a friend for moral support. Yes. Moral support on an anonymous dating app.
    Basically me to JB the whole time I was on the app.

    Basically me to JB the whole time I was on the app.

    Also I feel bad about rejecting someone because of their looks. The big red “NOPE” that pops up seems a bit harsh. I was trying to rationalise to a friend that I didn’t want to left-swipe a guy because I was sure he had a lovely personality. I was promptly reminded that that was not the point of this app.

  • Rude

    Rude.

    While it is a great ego boost to see the magical words, “It’s A Match!”, I do have to wonder if these guys right swiped every photo that they saw so that they can cast a wide net. I’ve heard that women often have better luck on these types of apps than men. I’ll make sure to remind myself that if I ever start to feel too chuffed from the texting.

Random high school throwback lyrics:

It’s just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can’t wait
You know all the right things to say
(You know it’s just too little too late)

You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn’t matter anyway
(You know it’s just too little too late)

– Jojo