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Day 34 – Don’t Stop Markin’

Lots and lots of marking today. I finished marking quite a few by waking up super early. I hope I can get a few more done tonight. I should go shower now so that I can get straight into it. Can’t I get a whoop whoop for being a workaholic?

I don’t really have time to blog anything else. Here’s a little throwback to my childhood movie, Now and Then. Enjoy the music stylings of Tony Orlando and Dawn.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Still listening to Sex With Emily podcast. Absolutely hilarious. I think I’m creeping out people on the bus because I’m always trying really hard not to react.
  • Listened to ‘Rose Tint My World’ on repeat. Such a good song. I especially love Brad and Janet’s part for absolutely no reason… no reason at all…
  • Did the “How Well Do You Know Sex and the City?” Quiz. 17/18. BOOM.
  • Tried and failed to watch Sex and the City. I have so much to do, I can’t even watch reruns. I’ve lost control of my life 😦

Random RHPS lyrics:

It’s beyond me help me Mommy!
I’ll be good you’ll see
Take this dream away
What’s this? Let’s see
I feel sexy!
What’s come over me?
Whoa! Here it comes again

Brad Majors

I mean, you ARE a little sexy...

I mean, you ARE a little (nerdy) sexy…

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Day 28 – I’m Tellin’ Y’all, It’s A (Self) Sabotage

I had my very last day at work today. Bittersweet. Bye bye, Angel face!!

I’ve been feeling super down lately. Totally my fault though. I’ve been eating badly and not exercising. I think I need to go back to my daily spin because obviously all this time in front of the computer is making me angsty. Maybe it’ll get the endorphins going or something. I’m going to try to keep my mood up. There’s nothing worse than writing while stressed out/depressed/tired/all three combined. It’s been so hard to stay motivated when my body is not only tired but also running on junk food. No more!

Hopefully they don’t quit on their MA either.

I have to make a few more edits to my proposal tomorrow. It’s a little stressful but I just want to get it out of the way so that I can start researching for real. I can’t wait to start writing and actually talking about what I found instead of what other people have said. I really don’t enjoy writing literature reviews but it definitely does help me remember where I am going. It ended up feeling amazing to be able read it back and think, “Oh yeah! That’s why I’m here!”

Okay. Enough of that.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Nothing. I may not have done much on my thesis but I had tutorials at uni and the other place.
  • …seriously, nothing.

Random lyrics about postgrad:

Spend some time improving what’s inside your head
Out, out, put it in storage, sell it on eBay, leave it behind
Out, out, what, are you angry? Good, so get angry
You may find the chip on your shoulder
Ooh, the room just got colder, hey
But with the chance you’ve been given
Why are you not driven as hell?

– Emmett

Day 21 – I Can See Clearly Now The Emails Are Gone

I’m going to try to go to sleep as soon as possible (right after this episode of Castle). I just want to take a little time to celebrate the fact that the second assignments are being handed in tomorrow so I finally have time to dedicate entire days to my proposal and get it handed in. There is so little to do that it’s frustrating to me that I still haven’t given a draft to my supervisor yet.

This is my life now.

This is my life now.

I had work both at uni and at the other place today so I didn’t get to do any  thesis stuff. I’m a little gutted about that but at the same time, I’m starting to think perhaps I’m showing the early signs of workaholism.  I think I need to learn how to not feel guilty about taking breaks. Though having said that, I’m coming up to a week with four deadlines so perhaps now is not the time to be worrying about becoming a workaholic.

It's only a matter of time...

It’s only a matter of time…

Truthfully, I kind of both love and hate my job(s). It’s so much work, my personal life is starting to crumble and I never get a minute to myself anymore . I’m essentially working for an invisible Miranda Priestly. As Nigel said in that cinematic masterpiece, “When your whole life goes up in smoke, that’s when it’s time for a promotion.”

Basically what I say in my head when I’m wading through the sea of students on my way to class

At the same time, I kind of love reading back the assignments and seeing what they’ve learned. The little media caterpillars are slowly growing into my very own Marxist butterflies…with an inherited bias towards Television Studies. If I manage to derail a promising first year law student by convincing them to drop out of the class to pursue a postgraduate qualification in Television Studies (as I myself did, oh so many moons ago), I know I would have done my job. Hello, AGaTrois 2.0. Welcome.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Took a Buzzfeed quiz. Apparently I’m a Robin.

    I wish.

    I wish.

  • Bought a ridiculous amount of costume stuff I don’t need. I’m glad to know that some aspects of my personality will remain intact, even as my chosen path slowly destroys my soul.

Random lyrics I heard on Bunheads that made me fall in love with Björk’s cover:

It’s, oh, so quiet (Sssh, sssh)
It’s, oh, so still (Sssh, sssh)
You’re all alone (Sssh, sssh)
And so peaceful until

You fall in love, zing, boom
The sky above, zing, boom
Is caving in, wow, bam!

You’ve never been so nuts about a guy
You wanna laugh you wanna cry
You cross your heart and hope to die

‘Till it’s over and then (Sssh, sssh)
It’s nice and quiet (Sssh, sssh)

-Björk

Day 19 – Yes That’s My Name In Black and White, Maybe I’m Doing Something Right

You know, being a tutor/teaching assistant is a lot more work than I ever realised when I was an undergrad. Helping first years has been especially tough because there are so many ways that you can help them but you have to find the balance between spoon-feeding them information and being unhelpfully vague. Having tutored a second year paper last year, I would say that this year has been a lot more draining. Not only because of the broad range of concepts that need to be covered but also just teaching them the basic things like how to structure an academic essay.

If I get them here, I'll consider it a win.

If I get them here, I’ll consider it a win.

All of us at the office had an endless string of emails and meetings today. Personally I’m just glad they care enough to check with us. Oh I hope you appreciate our effort, first years. You have no idea how burnt out we were today.

Speaking of the office, my name is finally on the door. Wooo!!  Perhaps you will recognise some of the initials I often mention in this blog. Shout out to BL, CH and NW if you’re reading this 🙂

Names have been redacted to protect us from potential stalkers and institutional backlash.

Names have been redacted to protect us from potential stalkers and institutional backlash.

I guess referring to myself as “The Forgotten Postgrad” no longer has the same relevance, especially since they’ve also now corrected the spelling of my name on the university website. There’s still the matter of not getting my “this is what you need to do” email that all the other postgrads got. Considering the deadline that that email would have been referring to is in just a little over a week, it’s probably a tad late…

It does feel kind of awesome to have a room with your name on it. Perhaps I should put a post it outside my bedroom door with “AGaTrois” on it, just for shits and giggles. I guess the people in this house wouldn’t know who that was either so it would perfectly capture the feeling.

Yeah...

Yeah…

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Nothing. Actually nothing. Everyone in the office spent the whole day meeting with students and responding to student emails. I really hope this means this next lot of essays will be amazing.
  • I guess technically since I didn’t get any time for thesis stuff, what I did instead of working was working… tutorial planning, readings and just lots and lots of assignment help.

Random “the narrator is pathetic but this song rocks” lyrics:

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I’d love you to love me.
I’m beggin’ you to beg me.

I’ll shine up my old brown shoes.
I’ll put on a brand new shirt
I’ll get home early from work
If you say that you love me.

– Cheap Trick

Day 14 – You Better Work (On Your Thesis)

I tried to quit my other job today because I really need to focus on my thesis and it’s getting to be way too exhausting. Blacking out is not fun. I unfortunately made the mistake of trying to say goodbye to my favourite student instead of doing a runner like a dead-beat parent. Apparently, I can’t, so now I still work Wednesdays. I am so weak. I always considered myself somewhat of a cold-hearted person but apparently I do not hate all children. Just the really annoying ones.

My thoughts on most children

My thoughts on most children

Wednesday is a super awkward day for me anyway because by the time I get to uni, I only have an hour or so left before I go to my tutorial and by the time I fall back into a study pattern, it’s already quite late. Hopefully once the new tutor for the other place arrives I can stop completely… or maybe I’ll luck out and working only one shift a week will end up being completely reasonable. I’d love to see my favourite student finish the programme since he and I actually started almost at the same time. Once he’s done though, I’m done too.

We out.

We out.

I took home my books today and I’ve started working on the research questions. Aaargh. Trying to frame the research shouldn’t feel this stressful but somehow it still is. After this, hopefully it’ll help me answer what gap my research will be filling. Apparently, “Lol, phrasing” is not a good enough answer. Avi Santo, give me strength.

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Pointless Facebook insult exchange with CH. Kudos on the office portrait 😉
  • Had a panic attack on the bus because it was taking its sweet freaking time getting to work. Thanks for the migraine before tutoring even starts.
  • Watched I Know What You Did Last Summer in bed. Teen slashers are freakishly calming for me.

Random “Yeah, That’s A Healthy Relationship…” Lyrics:

You’re hangin’ round, baby
With Jean and Joan and-a who knows who
I’m gettin’ tried of waitin’ and foolin’ around
I’ll find somebody who won’t make me feel like a clown
This can’t go on, Lord knows you got to change, baby

Santana

Day 7 – I’m Coming Up (to Uni), So You Better Get This Thesis Started

I’m about to dive head first into my MA responsibilities tomorrow so I decided to try to recover from marking by buying somewhat unnecessary things for my desk. I’m so excited to finally have an answer to, “What are you up to these days?” Answering with, “Oh, I’m doing my Master’s” will no longer technically be a lie.

Dawson’s Creek readings, I’m coming for you.

Basically me these days

Basically me these days

 

My purchases today include:

  • Matching bowl, saucer and mug. Let’s not even pretend I’m not going to be living off instant noodles this year. Shout out to Indo Mie, the unofficial sponsor of my thesis.
  • A cookie box. Because I can’t have stale cookies, that’s just messed up.
  • A pretty handtowel… why not?
  • A snuggly blanket and pillow for when I’m curled up on the floor with John Ellis.

So the office is pretty much all set up. I have even started to develop somewhat of a caffeine habit, along with the rediscovery of my love for the word ‘problematic’. That’s all you need for a successful media thesis anyway, right?

Things I did instead of working:

  • Spent a significant amount of time trying to find the full song of the “love is just a game” part of the ‘Elephant Love Medley‘ and ultimately got distracted by another awesome song called ‘Love’s A Game’.
  • Accidentally slept on the bus on the way to my other tutoring job while I was trying to research. Seriously, my schedule is killing me.

    This also happened on the bus. I can't drive either, buddy. Let's just leave it to those who know how.

    This also happened on the bus. I can’t drive either, buddy. Let’s just leave it to those who know how.

  • Had a long and detailed discussion with JB and SH about contemporary sex scenes in film and television. What is the distinction between pornography and HBO?
  • Felt heartbroken when I saw my favourite student’s sad face when I told him I wasn’t going to be his tutor anymore. I’ll miss you too, my talented little Angelface.
  • Photoshopped BL’s head on Don Brash’s shirtless body. Be careful what you joke about…
  • Talked to  JFtD on Facebook. I used your chosen nickname. Are you happy now, procrastination enabler?

Random “Totally just found out this awesome song existed” lyrics:

Oh maybe I think, maybe I don’t, maybe I will, maybe I won’t 
Find my way this time, I hear you calling me soon
One of these days , somebody stays and somebody pays
It happens all the time
I’ll be leaving, believing you wanted me to

Maybe I’m a fool
For walking in line
Maybe I should try to lead this time
I’m an honest mistake that you make
Did you mean to?

The Magic Numbers

Day 5 – Oh Baby, Marking Ain’t Over ‘Til It’s Over.

The official reading and writing may be done but I still have to assign percentage grades. At this point it feels like there’s no end but I know it all has to be in by Wednesday so there’s that little headache. Guess who’s not coming home at a decent hour tomorrow night?

It’s also the first day of term for my other teaching job. I informed them that I probably won’t be available for very much longer. Tutoring and the MA is enough for me, I think. I’ve been seeing spots and almost blacking out every time I go to work in the afternoon so that’s not a good sign. Although I do have one student that I want to see ‘graduate’ from the programme. Would it be creepy if I told him he could email me any essays he wants checked? Probably. I’m think I’m just having a very To Sir With Love  moment.

I would have taken the other job...

I would have taken the other job.

I know I’m in the final stretch but I’m so exhausted I just want to pass out. “I think I can, I think I can…”

I’m also enjoying the office a little too much. It’s only a matter of time before I bring an air mattress in there. I know CH would be game for that.

Or someone can buy me this. Wishlist!

Or someone can buy me this. Wishlist!

Things I did today instead of working:

  • Danced to ‘It’s Like That’ in order to wake up. It’s better than coffee…and that’s the way it is. Huh!
  • Started a Tumblr account and immediately got bored with it.
  • Went to work and rubbed my temples like an angry old lady when one of my students refused to do his work.
  • Watched Home Movies with the commentary on: “Nobody’s staring at me. People are staring at you and your stupid rich-bitch dress”

Random “I mean, right?!” lyrics of the day:

I can go for being twice as nice
I can go for just repeating the same old lines
Use the body now you want my soul
Ooh, forget about it now say, no go

I, I, I ‘ll do anything
That you want me to do
Yeah, I, I, I’ll do almost anything
That you want me to
But I can’t go for that, no
No can do

– Hall & Oates